
In part 1 of my Making Mistakes series I promised to tell you an embarrassing story about my teacher and I in an exam hall. A story that I am embarrassed to say it happened and yet proud of what I did at the end.
Turning something bad into a defining moment
This story may seem like nothing to most people. And yet it became a defining moment for me.
The setting was my grade 11 high school exam and we were all sitting in a large hall. The tables and chairs were put in columns with plenty of space between each column. And being me at the time, I didn’t know the subject well. Contrary to exams’ usual convention of not learning from ones’ classmates *during an exam*, I decided to ask a classmate for some quick help. Unfortunately for me, my stern teacher, who was standing on the stage of this hall at least 20+ feet away, noticed me in the act!
My “Oh shit!” moment happened when she decided to call out my name from the top of her lung! I was stunned and I stopped my “chat” with my classmate right away.
The story could have ended there because she didn’t even walk to talk to me nor did she have any plan to punish me or anything. But at that defining moment, I chose to act atypically for a student who got caught “chatting” in an exam hall. I went to her office afterwards and apologize to her personally. For me, something clicked that day and I changed.
Since then, the stubbornness in me made sure all my exams were done fair and square. Later, even when many of my undergrad or grad school university classmates decided to crack open their exams and took advantage to read up on question sheets a few minutes ahead of the actual start time, I never did.
From the day I apologized to my teacher on, I think I subconsciously decided to compete with myself. It is like playing golf, I am playing against myself, in the pursuit of excellence to the best of my abilities. If my best deserves an “A+”, great. If it only gets me a “B”, then I will take it as well. What I know or don’t know will not change because of my grades.
My general philosophy on making mistakes
My desire and wish is to maintain the curiosity, the speed in making mistakes, and speed in learning as close to the rate of a baby as I can throughout my life.
My friends Allan, and the new parents Nicole & Ken and their 10 months old baby Kristopher came over for dinner last night and we had a great time. It was fun to watch baby Kristopher so curiously crawling around on the floor exploring, trying to feed on usually not edible junk on the floor and our sometime successful attempt stop him from feasting on these junks. Ken’s comment on Kristopher’s deep amazement in looking at his own hands for minutes as if they are the most interesting things on earth. And Ken wandered how did we lose the sense of fascination and amazement that Kristopher had shown us so happily and readily?
I, for one, don’t think we have to lose this sense of fascination and amazement. I think if we, as adults, are willing to question and inspect things around us as if we are noticing them for the first time, think harder about them, then we can maintain or regain our sense of amazement.
UCLA economists Armen Alchian and many of his students, including Steven N. S. Cheung, are known by their abilities to ask deep and simple (child-like) questions to bring out new perspective and new angles to look at things. Alchian helped clarified many economists’ confusion with respect to “Utility” in the early days. May be we have something to learn from them all.
I would like to end this posting with a quote from Armen Alchian’s biography as I think it is a fun read and I think it shed some light on how I feel on things (emphasis mine),
Alchian is also known for his textbook, University Economics (now called Exchange and Production), coauthored with William R. Allen. That text is unique in economics. It is much more literary and humorous than any other modern economics textbook that deals with complex issues for an undergraduate audience. Example: “Since the fiasco in the Garden of Eden, most of what we get is by sweat, strain, and anxiety.” It also welcomes controversy rather than shying away from it, in the process daring the reader to disagree. Take, for example, Alchian and Allen’s discussion of violence:
Before condemning violence (physical force) as a means of social control, note that its threatened or actual use is widely practiced and respected—at least when applied successfully on a national scale. Julius Caesar conquered Gaul and was honored by the Romans; had he simply roughed up the local residents, he would have been damned as a gangster. Alexander the Great, who conquered the Near East, was not regarded by the Greeks as a ruffian, nor was Charlemagne after he conquered Europe. Europeans acquired and divided—and redivided—America by force. Lenin is not regarded in Russia as a subversive. Nor is Spain’s Franco, Cuba’s Castro, Nigeria’s Gowon, Uganda’s Amin, China’s Mao, our George Washington.
Why be safe when you can learn much faster by making potential mistakes? Be provocative but with a willingness to admit to errors, to change and to correct ourselves. Be humourous and have some fun. Learn baby learn!
May you learn like a baby all your life!
P.S. I love the many unexpected bonuses from my researches when I write a blog entry. Here is a book chapter from “Uncertainty and Economic Evolution: Essays in Honor of Armen A. Alchian” that I found on Google Book Search which I am going to read next, “In Celebration of Armen Alchian’s Eightieth Birthday by John R. Lott, Jr.” Enjoy.